I thought Spring was finally here. But the last week it has been snowing like its the middle of winter. I can’t help but miss the times in Florida when a little bit of sunshine wasn’t a main event but rather a thing we took for granted. I am definitely born in the wrong country when it comes to seasons and temperatures. I don’t really understand people who choose to live their whole life in this cold. The winter depressions and months without daylight and sun, seems to even out any social benefits to me. Id rather live somewhere where I am happy all year round, then just 4-6 months. Life is too short.
There is a lot of things changing at this moment. I have made a pretty big decision which will change my life drastically, and maybe make it a little bit more difficult. But the rewards are worth it. I have realized that I can’t live my life in fear of disappointing others, or to please others, but to follow my own dreams. Life is meant to be risky, life is meant to be lived with both ups and downs, and I don’t want to sit back and wait to start living anymore.
I have never really known exactly what I have wanted, but I have let life lead me to the next thing. I have a million things I am passionate about, some that scares me and others nobody knows about. And right now I feel stuck in a space where I don’t feel inspired. I don’t feel like I am expressing myself fully. I can blame the weather, which I do on the daily, but it is also the fact that I have out grown the place where I am currently. I have always felt that my hometown is too small for me, and every time I come back I stay for a little while and end up feeling the same. I wanna plant roots somewhere, but I know that here is not the place where I can grow.
I don’t really know why I am writing this post, I just needed to get it off my chest somehow. I didn’t want this blog to be too personal, but let’s face it. I don’t know any other way.
Do you ever feel like you have outgrow where you are?